Scared of Lonely

The lights are out, so I lit candles and as I watched the flames dance
I was reminded of a dwindling romance.
One that has lots of laughter,
great sex,
but no chance.
Two free spirits,
one puling away and one pushing to breathe as one breath,
share one heartbeat with ease, in one chest
and a child who sleeps soundly while his mommy tries to think of how to make him surpass,
where mommy and daddy made it to, but didn't last.
She wonders if the two of them will last.
Her and this single minded man she loves that is,
so much they don't see eye to eye on.
So much time gone.
She wonders if it's still worth the time she'll have to take healing to walk away after all these years.
Taken through more than most are willing,
yet her anger STILL doesn't overcome the tears.
There it is,
the reason why she can't leave,
the reason why she ignores all of what he does even after every cheat,
even though she's tired of the rage and tears running down her cheeks.
Her heart battles her common sense to let her know,
leaving him would make her miserably lonely,
she cant let him go.
Regardless of everything he does,
regardless of all the reasons she speaks, feels and thinks of
She stays cause deep down she's still in love with love.